My apologies for missing last weeks update. I'm also supposed to upload a second set of new pictures today but i don't know if I'm going to be able to.. I usually use my laptop computers timer to take the photos but its broken right now :(. I only have one mirror in the house and its mounted really high behind the bathroom sink. there is absolutely NO way to get a full body shot with that! Ugh.. well, I'm going to have to invest in a full length mirror to put in my bedroom. Hopefully I can buy one before next week. 
Anyway I guess I'll just go ahead and give my weights for last Saturday and today. Last week was 147 lb. and this week its 149 lb. I seem to steadily gain a lb. every week don't I? Grrr… I don't understand! I have followed my plan exactly and I haven't binged exact for my given binge days (holidays/birthdays), and even those binge days I didn't go over 1200 calories.. ugh.. Just crossing my fingers that I'll finally start dropping again by next Saturday. I CAN NOT GO OVER 150 lb. i would die! so wish me luck! :/
 
I know this is late. (I'm starting to make this a habit 0_0) Oh well, this is my weekly update. I gained yet another pound :( But the good news is I start the Healthy Skinny Girl Diet tomorrow and hopefully that will make me start shedding this fat! 

*146 lbs*

 
These are the exercise plans that I'm doing along side of The New You Challenge. They only last 80 days so I'll let you know what ill be doing after these. These plans are good for beginners who have never exercised before or are too weak to do a really heavy exercise routine. You can also find them in my exercise page.

I started the first one on November 13. So I'm currently on day 5 of The Starter's Exercise Plan.
 
I know this is a day late but I was super busy planning and running a birthday party at my house that I lost track of time. Plus I've been too embarrassed to upload these sense there not any better and may in fact be worse. I gained a whole pound! Actually a pound and a half. Im so ashamed… I didn't expect rapid weight loss this soon into it because of the high amount of calories I'm eating but i didn't exactly expect to gain. Research suggest it has to do with the fact that Ive been restricting for so long that eating this high amount of calories would make someone like me gain whereas others would lose. I however think its due to the fact that I binged on veterans day and yesterdays birthday party because in the rules I stated that holidays and birthdays are free. God, am i dreading thanksgiving. At least that's the last holiday for a while..

*145lb*

Age: 21 Height: 5'7"
HW:  195lb. 86kg. BMI: 29.8 (While pregnant)😶
HW:  173lb. 76kg. BMI: 27.1 (Just me)😡
LW:   126lb. 57kg. BMI: 19.7😔
SW:   170lb. 75kg. BMI: 26.6😤
CW:   145lb. 66kg. BMI: 22.7😒

 
√GW1: 160lb. 73kg. BMI: 25.1😩
√GW2: 150lb. 68kg. BMI: 23.5😠
  GW3: 140lb. 64kg. BMI: 21.9😥
  GW4: 130lb. 59kg. BMI: 20.4😕
  GW5: 120lb. 54kg. BMI: 18.8😏
  GW6: 110lb. 50kg. BMI: 17.2😌
  GW7: 100lb. 45kg. BMI: 15.7😊
  UGW: 95lb.  43kg. BMI: 14.9😄


*DGW: 90lb. 41kg. BMI: 14.1😍*
 
So yesterday I posted some pictures of myself looking… well horrible! I didn't realize how bad things had gotten until i looked at those photos. So I decided to share some photos of just a few months ago when I was at my lowest weight of 128-134 lbs. I still want to get smaller than that but I just wanted to share that I wasn't always as fat as I am right now. Actually I was all the way up to 175 at one point. I dropped over 30lb. in two months and kept it off for a while. Now I'm back to 145 and its really showing.. I HAVE TO GET THIS OFF! 
Picture128lb.
This was me trying on my 21st birthday party dress. I think I weighed around 128-130lb.. This is the only picture I have of me this small and I don't have any pictures of me when I was even smaller. Its hard to see exactly how thin i had gotten here because of the shape of the dress but i think you can mostly tell with my legs.  This was taken about 5 months ago.

Picture135lb.
This was Valentines Day 2012. I weighed around 135 lb. This is the first time I noticed the weight was really coming off. I remember how proud I felt of myself that night. 

Anyway, I just wanted to show a few pictures of when I wasn't obese!! By goal is to be back the these ^^^  by New Years and then new goals after that. 
Age: 21 Height: 5'7"
HW:  195lb. 86kg. BMI: 29.8 (While pregnant)😶
HW:  173lb. 76kg. BMI: 27.1 (Just me)😡
LW:   126lb. 57kg. BMI: 19.7😔
SW:   170lb. 75kg. BMI: 26.6😤
CW:   144lb. 65kg. BMI: 22.6😒

 
√GW1: 160lb. 73kg. BMI: 25.1😩
√GW2: 150lb. 68kg. BMI: 23.5😠
  GW3: 140lb. 64kg. BMI: 21.9😥
  GW4: 130lb. 59kg. BMI: 20.4😕
  GW5: 120lb. 54kg. BMI: 18.8😏
  GW6: 110lb. 50kg. BMI: 17.2😌
  GW7: 100lb. 45kg. BMI: 15.7😊
  UGW: 95lb.  43kg. BMI: 14.9😄


*DGW: 90lb. 41kg. BMI: 14.1😍*
 
This is something I created for myself in order to lose weight in time for my birthday on May, 11. That gives me a little over 6 months. I believe that I can make an incredible difference in that time period. It started when I was binging everyday non stop no matter that I did! I decided that I should just raise my calories and allow myself to over eat for a few days so that I can slowly bring it back down (and i mean slowly). Hopefully at the end of this I will be able to control my craving and binges again. 
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Okay so I know this is a HORRIBLE picture. Ill try to get a better one on as soon as possible.
Basically I will lower my calorie intake by 100 every 3 days, starting with 2,000. After I get to 1,000 I will complete the Healthy Skinny Girl Diet. When that is completed I will continue what I was doing before, until i get to 600, when I will then complete the original Skinny Girl Diet. When thats completed I will continue until I get to 400, when I will do the Ana Boot Camp (ABC) Diet. After that I will continue until i reach 200, when I will complete the Alice Diet. After which I will continue until i reach 100. After i reach 100 i will do 3 days of 50 calories followed by 3 days of Fasting. The next day is my birthday!  Hopefully this makes sense to you. 

My Before Picture...

Please excuse my fat ass! This really is appalling.. (BTW I really do have boobs even though it doesn't look like it these pictures).
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Before the New You Challenge 11/9/13

*144lb.* 

I will be uploading a new picture every week. Wish me luck!
Age: 21 Height: 5'7"
HW:  195lb. 86kg. BMI: 29.8 (While pregnant)😶
HW:  173lb. 76kg. BMI: 27.1 (Just me)😡
LW:   126lb. 57kg. BMI: 19.7😔
SW:   170lb. 75kg. BMI: 26.6😤
CW:   144lb. 65kg. BMI: 22.6😒

 
√GW1: 160lb. 73kg. BMI: 25.1😩
√GW2: 150lb. 68kg. BMI: 23.5😠
  GW3: 140lb. 64kg. BMI: 21.9😥
  GW4: 130lb. 59kg. BMI: 20.4😕
  GW5: 120lb. 54kg. BMI: 18.8😏
  GW6: 110lb. 50kg. BMI: 17.2😌
  GW7: 100lb. 45kg. BMI: 15.7😊
  UGW: 95lb.  43kg. BMI: 14.9😄


*DGW: 90lb. 41kg. BMI: 14.1😍*
 
Okay, okay… I love musicals. ^^ Hence the King and I title :P. This is going to be a general about me kind of post. So, lay back, relax, and grab a bowl of popcorn (HYPOTHETICAL OF COURSE!!).  

This past year

Well I'll start with the basics I guess. My name is Kayla. I'm 21 years old. I'm married to the most amazing guy ever.. sometimes.. JK i love you babe ;). We have two amazing young boys ages 3 and 22 months. I couldn't live without any one of them. My husband was active duty in the Marine Corps. He was an infantry  rifleman and a bomb dog handler. I could not be any prouder of him. He got out of the military when his contract was up last year after 4 years of service. Now he realizes that it was the greatest mistake of his life! When he got out we lost our house, our car, all of our savings, and eventually all of our possessions. In the past year we have been homeless in three different states. We have faced trials and tragedy over and over again. We've lost people dear to us and now after everything we've been through, we're living in a tiny 2 bedroom apartment with my mother while my husband makes minimum wage at a grocery store. We went from having it all to having nothing! By the way when I say we had it all I mean we had more blessings then I could count. A house, a car, day care for the kids, my husbands job, insurance, I was in school, and so much more. We still had our struggles but for the first time in my life I was truly happy. Now I feel absolutely hopeless! 
Well, there is a light at the end of a very long, dark, and dreary tunnel. After trying and trying his hardest to get back in the military it looks like we might finally be getting there. Almost the second he got out he realized he needed to get back in. He has tried EVERY branch, active and reserves, any job available. Every time we get so close through the process and at the very end we get told of a problem. He is what everyone is looking for; young, fit, healthy, smart, and never been in trouble. He has a spotless record with the Marine Corp but for some reason we always run into problems.  FINALY it looks like he might actually get in this time. The Marine Corps Reserves as a combat engineer. Its not ideal because its not active but its defiantly a start. We should know more at the end of the month. Okay so now that I've bored you with all this military and homeless talk, i'll move on. 
So currently I am a stay at home mom and my oldest son goes to head-start 3 days a week. I basically sit on my ass all day long. I have no friends and no idea how to go out and make any sense I am in a new place and don't know anybody!   :(  

What's wrong with me?!

I have had chronic migraines sense I was a kid. Chronic back pain and back injures that have made it worse. Chronic pain and chronic fatigue sense i was around 17. I was diagnosed with fibromyalgia when I was 19. I was diagnosed with iron deficiency anemia when I was a kid as well. I have been diagnosed with chronic depression and chronic generalized anxiety disorder. I know.. what don't I have, right? Also my mom is insane. She has Borderline Personality Disorder as well as other things and you never know when she's going to loose it. I can not wait to be out of this house and away from her!

My Eating Disorder and me

I have never been officially diagnosed but I consider myself to have EDNOS (Eating Disorder not Otherwise Specified). I have a love/hate relationship with food. I want nothing more than to bing when I'm restricting or fasting and then as soon as I eat I feel even worse than I did before. Its an endless cycle. For a long time I was able to restrict and keep it that way without many problems but lately all I can think about doing is just binging binging binging! I have had the eating disorder mentality sense I was a preschooler but it hasn't drastically effected my eating directly until about 10 months ago when I started severely restricting my calories. Ive never been severely overweight but I miss being the skinniest one like I was when I was a kid. Ive tried purging and I hate it! I do it now on occasion but only when I binge and it is very rare that i will purge and be successful. My goal right now is to be 90 lb. Currently I am 145 lb. 
Well I guess that's it for now. I will be back with undoubtedly more boring ranting ;)
Age: 21 Height: 5'7"
HW:  195lb. 86kg. BMI: 29.8 (While pregnant)😶
HW:  173lb. 76kg. BMI: 27.1 (Just me)😡
LW:   126lb. 57kg. BMI: 19.7😔
SW:   170lb. 75kg. BMI: 26.6😤
CW:   146lb. 66kg. BMI: 22.9😒

 
√GW1: 160lb. 73kg. BMI: 25.1😩
√GW2: 150lb. 68kg. BMI: 23.5😠
  GW3: 140lb. 64kg. BMI: 21.9😥
  GW4: 130lb. 59kg. BMI: 20.4😕
  GW5: 120lb. 54kg. BMI: 18.8😏
  GW6: 110lb. 50kg. BMI: 17.2😌
  GW7: 100lb. 45kg. BMI: 15.7😊
  UGW: 95lb.  43kg. BMI: 14.9😄


*DGW: 90lb. 41kg. BMI: 14.1😍*

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    Hi, my name is Kayla. I'm married to the most amazing guy ever and we have two young boys. He is in the Marine Corps and I am trying to finish my degree. I love ballet, any dance really, but especially ballet. I like all performing arts! A hobby of mine is photography and I like arts and crafts.  I am diagnosed with Chronic Depression and Chronic Generalized Anxiety Disorder. I also consider myself to have EDNOS but I've never had an official diagnoses. There is so much about me I have yet to discover and I would love for you to be there with me while i make new discoveries!

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